just a book

Back again , its been long since iv written hasnt it, read a book made me think , let me share the ponderings with you. Life is good normally, i mean yes people do live in misery and all, but the thing is life kinda sorts itself out, yes you might not have money at present to spend , but you have enough to exist, to scrape, to survive. Yet so many perish do they choose to give up or is it misery that kills them without their permission.

I think every one wants to live and any sort of life without change can be a misery. So it is misery that kills i guess. A guy born to the gutter , would want a house a job , some money for a vacation. Every man born to a middle class family with bourgionies mentality, would want to do something different , to get away from his daily wages, to live the life of class , a bigger house to roam in big cars and so on. What do the rich kids want i really havnt got a clue. I guess when ur up there u wanna run away from it all, to do something which is more mediocre. Yes you do enjoy the new ferari standing in the poarch, but i guess you still want something from life which is amiss.


Enough of this philosophy i think im going round in circles once again.

Well this book was bout one such guy, who was quite poor livin in a hole for a place and how he chose to be different, i wont call it a success story, but neither can i call it a failure. Well he was livin poorly, but he had enough to him to scrape through, he could work and make some money. Well he stopped working he chosae to make himself miserable, we all choose to become miserable sometimes just to bring out a change iv seen it happen to myself. You are confortable with a position yet you want a change, actually the truth is u are uncomfortable but , you dont have the balls to make the change. So you buy time and become more miserable in your otherwise ok position by neglect,by choice. All this is done just to cause that change, you mentally prepare yourself for it, think bout it. Till Finally you do make that change, and if this fails too then you are a coward and you will remain miserable.
There are some people who are more hasty about their decisions and their choices , well im not such so i cant really say but i think they either lack foresight, or they lack the patience to see a thing through. Sometimes its the geniuouses who act like this , but the problem is you miss out the endless night that is spent burnin midnight oil just to think bout the situation, Well they have made their decision judging and weighing their pros and cons only it dosent show. Well tje other sorts are emotional decision makers and its their heart which makes the choice with no brain involved. Which one is a better way of thinking im not sure, but let us continue.

So this guy hes a serious thinker he lies awake many sleepless nights planning to become rich quick. He chooses his subject and action and even the weapon with complete plannin. He wants to kill this old woman for some cash. Shes a pawnbroker who is takin other peoples things and payimng them pittance for it. But the economy of the country helps her so she thrives.

He unconciously plans her murder and even commits it but as soon as the deed is done the plan goes down the drain ,. he didnt latch the door when he committed the murder, and this led to a second murder completely unplanned, of an innocent women , miserable like him. ... to be continued in next session gotta go now.

Intellectual Exhibitioner

Here we go once again , I think this is becoming an addiction anytime I get I sit on the stupid computer and start typin away. He he I think I like seein myself on the screen after all every bit that I write exposes a bit of me I wonder if someone reading this thing would actually know me, I mean a complete stranger, would he or she really know me.

Well we will let the question hang in the air for a bit, let it dry out till it finds a solution to itself. Now I wonder if someone comes up to me , I mean through the comments and says well dude I know u ur the one whose completely insane, what would I say to him, Fuck you man go to hell , well I don't think so id probably say u right man , completely but u no better than me dude after all u bloody checkin the blog aren't you.
I guess im the exhibitionist and he/ she the voyeur, completely intellectually though , no peeps this no invitation for you to come into my livin room , intellectually remember.


Huh I think that's enough for the day what says you.

A Star is Born

Well its been so long that iv Posted something on this Blog that I almost couldnt access the bloody thing. Well that kinda shows off my Competence in Technology or the coplete lack of it dosent it.

Iv come from a long vacation exactly five days, thats almost like a month in working mans terms . It has been refreshing and yet iv never felt more tired in my life. Stupid Indian transport, and stupid middle class mentality , leads to tired journeying into workin stratospheres in stupid busses driven by completely insane drivers suffering from severe road rage.

I realise iv come back to the working atmosphere as i see ppl crib around me bout little things of work. Well i also see that i havnt fit in as of yet , im still kinda enjoying the little bit of work that i do, or maybew thats why i havent joined them as of yet

Sometimes a man has to do what a man has to do, no matter how bloody scared he is of the whole thing. I gave you a taste of it , before and well now ull have some more of it, yes sweet things im talking bout the bloody battle of the Landlord of the Rings. Im back again and this time with a will to survive. well actually i have a bit of preperation time, that is mental preperation, as im goin to mumbai for a bit . But promise you all that as soon as i come back a new star will be born, please do log in to join me next time in the s. ha ha ha i like being melodramatic dont i

Lets Dance

Well felt like writing once again this time without a theme or a subject just bout confusion. Well the truth about it all is that no one will ever know the truth about it all. Right now im not even able to tell what is living life to the fullest that is truthfully, without lying to myself. Then how will i ever live it,

Is it standing on a beach looking at the waves, or is it playing a good game of basketball, or maybe just shooting a few hoops, what bout sittin with old friends guzzling down tons of beer over a joint and some insane conversation , what bout that peacefull cigarettee smoked in the middle of chaos sitting on the pavement just lookin at the world go by, what bout the gravell piles where tombs of old friends and beautifull memmories are left behind. What bout the long nites spent with restles stars , long drives, contemplation, meeting new interesting ppl. Quality time spent with the family, the mothers hug and the fathers scolding well for guys atleast. That first sip of Vodka that lingers on your tounge, and the last drag of a cigarette .

Well you know what its all this and more,
all you need to do is explore,
ya you gotta ebrace certain things and give up some,
but sweetheart dont ever say there are things you havent done
You dont have to move to fly,
just keep and open mind
Life is a beauty you have to take the chance
Cumon sweet darling its time to dance.