Well its that time of the year yet once again when i decide to blow my money on something substantially important to me . Its time to spend money ion the Gmat , well unlike last year well it was last year, i am prepared this time prepared with my Passport. (Laughs at self), well
I guess one thing i learnt from that experience is the value of money and well the non importance of it at certain times. So here I am at the doors once again knocking and well this time there will be something out of it , I havnt yet taken a date , but im looking at it for the 25th of April . yeds right before my birthday and this is all cos i wanna party on my special day.
So what next , well started preparing once again , with just a bit of theory done and some more left , and all those prep tests to be taken i feel that im a bit shrot on time but then i had prepared to a fair degree before so im counting on remembring something from there. Well with it oiver i think ill have a better perspective on life and well not what if i had done it kinda thinking , i know it involves large sums of money and the future seems a bit uncertain after it all but i think this time ill take the chances, or rather I know it.
So heres to a brighter future im there already , hehehhe , ok but on more important note if the workload remains as shitty as it is right now , well i came back at nine , and well now im gonna study. anyways no ifs and buts about it im doing it.
Tuesday, March 25, 2008
Friday, March 21, 2008
It Rained in Hyderabad
Today is supposedly Holi or so i believe, today is the festival of color , and all of a sudden the importance of context dawns on me. We live life in contexts and suddenly for me the context of family seems so important. I sit here on this festival doing absolutely nothing , going to work and achieving nothing there. However if i was at home, would it really have been that different , probably not, i would have sat at home and achieved nothing too, but the context of family, of home would have made it so different so much more festive. Or the compilation of friends all set to color me and me to color them , yet now there presence is negligible , and the fun all gone from the Festival.
Off late I seem to have gotten confused. I guess I'm in a transition phase from a non visionary to someone with a vision, what will dawn out of it I still haven't got a clue , but then that s what this transition , this discomfort is all about. It seems to be bursting out at the seams, and all i can do is dig in deeper. Well cant really say that I have actively participated in this search , In fact most of the times iv tried running away from it , in alcohol, in merriment and on the net. The final answer dissatisfaction and restlessness. It feels like something is going to happen if it will I'm happy to embrace it , or hopefully there finally would be peace. All I know is that the escape too is becoming unbearable.
It rained in Hyderabad today, a pleasant evening with clouds in the sky and the temperatures falling from their scorching skies, beautiful rain , of fresh water , the smell of wet soil , the breeze laden with drops, ah beautiful mother nature, ahhh fertility. It was cool like due like a mid summers dream. I went out in it got wet, happy holi guys , there were these kids innocent looking out of the hospital window , poking their little hands out to touch the rain and i was in it , I waved at them it brought them pleasure , and it made me happy too. A new beginning a fresh context the beautiful rain .
Off late I seem to have gotten confused. I guess I'm in a transition phase from a non visionary to someone with a vision, what will dawn out of it I still haven't got a clue , but then that s what this transition , this discomfort is all about. It seems to be bursting out at the seams, and all i can do is dig in deeper. Well cant really say that I have actively participated in this search , In fact most of the times iv tried running away from it , in alcohol, in merriment and on the net. The final answer dissatisfaction and restlessness. It feels like something is going to happen if it will I'm happy to embrace it , or hopefully there finally would be peace. All I know is that the escape too is becoming unbearable.
It rained in Hyderabad today, a pleasant evening with clouds in the sky and the temperatures falling from their scorching skies, beautiful rain , of fresh water , the smell of wet soil , the breeze laden with drops, ah beautiful mother nature, ahhh fertility. It was cool like due like a mid summers dream. I went out in it got wet, happy holi guys , there were these kids innocent looking out of the hospital window , poking their little hands out to touch the rain and i was in it , I waved at them it brought them pleasure , and it made me happy too. A new beginning a fresh context the beautiful rain .
Monday, March 17, 2008
Today has been one of the good days , got up early morning to a friends call, lazed around for just the right amount of time , received a good morning SMS from a close friend. Had a good breakfast , the egg broke a bit but came out well. Wore a nice shirt , got an auto just outside the house, met no traffic, work went smoothly in office , the boss lost it for a sec but thats ok , had a nice cup of tea, waiting for lunch , did good work .
Well i think some days are just perfect arnt they, and we dont even realise that its the simplicity of the good days that makes them good.
Hope you have a good day too.
Well i think some days are just perfect arnt they, and we dont even realise that its the simplicity of the good days that makes them good.
Hope you have a good day too.
Tuesday, March 11, 2008
Hello , some of you who are avid readers of this blog ,or so i would like to dellude myself would have missed me. Iv been on vacation and well didnt feel like writing nothing on this blog .
Iv just come from two weeks of bliss at home, how the time was spent or how quickly it finished are relative terms and well cant really be answered, because as usual the vacation was too short and as to how the time was spent I dont have a clue.
As you might have gathered from my previous posts , I was in a state of well universal confusion when i Had last blogged , those things seem to have sorted themselves out as usual , now i face a new set of problems , ofcourse m but then they are so natural a part of life that it diont make much of a difference. Usual things which are bothering me now are ,
1) Loneliness , after spending 14 days with the family after a gap of one year makes me suddenly realise how lonely this existence is.
2) Boredom,- after 14 days of always having something planned to do , or rather something to do period, this coming back to a purposeless , task less job seems to be strange , I am pretty sure i would be able to fill this gap up soon
3) Lethargy - from a state of continuous pleasure and relaxation to a forced state of work , is presently being opposed by inertia , and well this is another thing that i would be getting over with in a day or two.
4) Dispacement - i would call it altered sensorium , everything feels so out of place so not the way it is suppose to be , so different , and i realise that all that thas changed is the way i see things. So anywyas i seem to be walking around in a different world at a different pace
5) My Laptops screens concked
6) Its just been 1 day in Hyderabad and I have severe loosemotions.
Well i know ill get through all of the above mentioned in due course of time .
Till then well i donty really know .
Iv just come from two weeks of bliss at home, how the time was spent or how quickly it finished are relative terms and well cant really be answered, because as usual the vacation was too short and as to how the time was spent I dont have a clue.
As you might have gathered from my previous posts , I was in a state of well universal confusion when i Had last blogged , those things seem to have sorted themselves out as usual , now i face a new set of problems , ofcourse m but then they are so natural a part of life that it diont make much of a difference. Usual things which are bothering me now are ,
1) Loneliness , after spending 14 days with the family after a gap of one year makes me suddenly realise how lonely this existence is.
2) Boredom,- after 14 days of always having something planned to do , or rather something to do period, this coming back to a purposeless , task less job seems to be strange , I am pretty sure i would be able to fill this gap up soon
3) Lethargy - from a state of continuous pleasure and relaxation to a forced state of work , is presently being opposed by inertia , and well this is another thing that i would be getting over with in a day or two.
4) Dispacement - i would call it altered sensorium , everything feels so out of place so not the way it is suppose to be , so different , and i realise that all that thas changed is the way i see things. So anywyas i seem to be walking around in a different world at a different pace
5) My Laptops screens concked
6) Its just been 1 day in Hyderabad and I have severe loosemotions.
Well i know ill get through all of the above mentioned in due course of time .
Till then well i donty really know .
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