Sunrises and sunsets

Lifes a slow train at present , through a dull town with one station resembeling the other. I mean ever since i have take the decision to give Gmat , its been similar , either full of cramming , or guilt for not cramming , and the beers they seem to have taken a major back seat. To add to this the bloody television , i really wonder now how i lived without it . i mean now i have absolutely no idea how to spend any free time , i mean lets say the dinner break between the studying i switch on the dumb TV and with no cable connection look at the blank screen , it somehow makes the food go down easier.

But then im not really complaining im kinda fantacising after so long now, i remember doing it when i was a kid, somehow we all grow over it , i mean now even in my fantasies there are reality checks. now thats a scary thought on limitations. Imagine of dereaming and dreaming the way you want to dream and then suddenly realising its not really possible as life usually sucks and theres no other way about it.


But then every morning is an adventure , I wake up and the skys beautifull, i dont wakeup to see the sky but its part of this routine that i have formed , i have my tea in the varandah , and the sunshines so brightly. One thing particular to the mornings is the shining sun and the cold breeze it reminds me so much of winters back home. I close my eyes and for a few seconds i m back in Shimla, a few years back takin in the sun after this drive , the only difference its evening and the suns setting over the mountains a beautifull view, i stop the car to take a smoke , it feels so good and here i stand with my cup of tea and look at the sunrise and wish that it were a sunset in a different town. And even the thought of it sets me free to fantasize yet once again.