Advice from friend - my take on it.

This is from inspration from a friend that i was in deep converstion with for the past two odd hours. Just a bit of background we parted some three years ago , we have gone through our bit of shit over the past three years,we both our single, we both hate our jobs or rather are now a bit tired of them, both of us have had our bit of broken relationships.

Anyways its something that i use to talk about till i got caught with it. Existentiality , the present day scenario, the present month scenario and so on and so forth. The race for money , the quest for love, the search for fame and the dream of adventure. All of it desires , that remain unfulfilled cos we are trying so hard to get at them , to make it happen for us.

Did you realise that most of us are at present unhappy , due to some reason or the other and that this particular unhappines is not leading us anywhere, its not that most of are doing anything to get away from this unhapiness , we crib , we cry , we get depressed at times, and at other times we try to drown it in alcohol , or maybe a parellel world, and sometimes we simply go insane.

Whats the solution to it all , well definately not geting too involved. I mean do you really think getting that new car would help you and do you really thing you wont desire the next big thing. Its so stupid this running around, this waking up and not liking the idea of being alive cos there are so many things that you have not acheived and which seem for far beyond you.

Did you ever realise that this existentiality has actually stopped you from thinking about the bigger picture, because you are too buisy thinking about existence itself. And actually if you had thought clearly about it you nmight have acheived it by now.

The solution - the way of the mad man .

Dont worry about it, about the love youv lost , about the job that you wanted, about the future, about the past , about where you would be in three years , or five years or thirty for that matter of fact. About hating your boss, about being in love with him , about the boring job, or age.

(Its a strange realisation , iv had it in me for years, my problems more two pronged , theres existentiality at one level and theres philosophy at the other , so either its to detailed or its to wide a spectrum, and in both of these I havnt been able to see myself.)

I suddenly realise that in truth over the past one year I havnt really had a thought of my own , its been somthing that derived out of pressure , either parental , or societal, man i dont give a shit no more , not now atleast , and its complete euphoria in a strange relatively placid way.
I wish you could share wat i feel at present , i really wonder if you would see it that way , probably all this nonsensicle thought is really nonsensicle , but i ned to share it with you cos you need to understand it somewhere down the line. My desire at present is to make you happy , not just happy but truly satisfied.

I cant really say that tomorrow I would practice all that i have learnt today , but atleast the realisation is a begining. Thank you dear friend for your gift of patience , of retrospection and of lessons that you have learnt from life, it has helped me in strange ways to place myself within the picture. To tomorrow then a brigther day than today , for the rest of our lives.