let the punches roll

Well I just thought would sit up and write something though what it is that I'm gonna type bout i have no idea. Iv kinda been happy for two days in a row, why no clue again , talked to a few friends felt like meeting up with people , felt once again that I had a life and needed to quit smoking. These are strange little signs of life coming back into you , when you want to start living it usually a good sign , the sign before life sprouts back and you rule for a bit till something else kills you .

I think life is like a video game , sometimes you just die , and sometimes you just get bored with it , but then you can always press continue and you'd for sure come back to play again , because its endless, and curiosity will get you by the end of it.

I had this new awakening again too , its something which I could not put very well in words i guess , but lets try here. Every man / woman at sometime is a looser in life , these are the days when you are down and vulnerable , you get attracted to all the wrong ( so called) things, wrong women , The wrong drink / drug/ elixir, the wrong life. But the funny think about all of this is that the more you drink out of this cup , the more thirsty you get. Its never ending. Its like a man in a desert taking a mirage for an oasis , and drinking water out of it and in the end the thirst never quenches , but only increases as the man puts sand in his mouth. Until the man awakens from his stupor , which he may or may not , and looks for the real thing. I think I have been this man for quite sometime , how I'm different now , I have no clue but i see the sand for now , in this lucid interlude. I have this very clear vision of a man with a mouth filled with sand , the smile on his face and the anguish in his eyes , at moments like this i wish i could sketch , cos its things like this that demand to be remembered , to be put down on paper for others to see themselves in it and for them to move on.

OK so now that the soul searching s over ( big lie its always a continuous process isn't it , even in those two seconds of peace) well so its time for action i guess , have kindled some desires in the last few days , have seen some new visions, till the day comes lets just keep mum cause after all keren says sharing to much information with too many people can be bad for you , and neeti says change is good. and well Pinkie simply says some random things which you sometimes need to decipher. So ill just simply say let the punches roll baby I'm ready .