ANGER - RESTLESS - Indifferent

Im feeling quite miserable today, it might be the weather, or it might be that i haven't really gone out at all , well did for a smoke but not too sure if id count that. The frustration is actually pent up frustration from the time i had last posted , i thought id sort out life a bit but i just seem to get tangled in it more and more.

Well im just gonna crib and rant here so leave if you want to

1) im frustrated at having to listen to stupidity for the sake of the source its coming from
2) im frustrated of having to think before spending any cash , and more so at myself for not thinking anything before i spend.
3) im tired of living someone else's life in someone else's house on someone else's terms.
4) im sad about not being in love, im sadder about not believing in it.
5)im tired of not having control over that tv remote
6) im sad about the loss of my ability to enjoy drunken night out without going on a guilt trip the next day
7)im tired of having to think how life will turn out
8)Im tired of feeling aimless
9) im tired of that pestering feeling that i need an aim.
10) im tired of being scared and im tired of being brave
11) im tired of hope and im tired of failure again and again
12) im sad about my inability to take life light and im tired of my unability to take it seriously
13)im tired of running away from responsibility and yet not being able to cut the ties that tie me to them
14) im sad about my giddy indecision , being blown in every direction with each thrust of reason or opportunity
15)im tired of this post

The author is re- assessing life's progress please wait

Hi fellows this is just to let you know that im alive and doing good, sorry for the silence for the past two weeks or so, i know i haven't really lived up-to my promise of a weekly post and even this post can barely be counted.

My excuse this time is that life's a bit tumultuous, actually its monotonous, its just that my souls a bit jaded and confused as usual, but the good news seems to be that its trying to fight its way out of lethargy and fucktardism. Yeah thats a word i just create ill probably go more in detail about that some other time.

Basically my systems trying to map my progress and self worth at present,and trying to establish some sort of a strategy to get me moving. Well or maybe im just trying to install all the upgrades that were pending. So in the words of the great womaniser and even greater politician and actor - ILL BE BACK - after re-assessign life.