just a book

Back again , its been long since iv written hasnt it, read a book made me think , let me share the ponderings with you. Life is good normally, i mean yes people do live in misery and all, but the thing is life kinda sorts itself out, yes you might not have money at present to spend , but you have enough to exist, to scrape, to survive. Yet so many perish do they choose to give up or is it misery that kills them without their permission.

I think every one wants to live and any sort of life without change can be a misery. So it is misery that kills i guess. A guy born to the gutter , would want a house a job , some money for a vacation. Every man born to a middle class family with bourgionies mentality, would want to do something different , to get away from his daily wages, to live the life of class , a bigger house to roam in big cars and so on. What do the rich kids want i really havnt got a clue. I guess when ur up there u wanna run away from it all, to do something which is more mediocre. Yes you do enjoy the new ferari standing in the poarch, but i guess you still want something from life which is amiss.


Enough of this philosophy i think im going round in circles once again.

Well this book was bout one such guy, who was quite poor livin in a hole for a place and how he chose to be different, i wont call it a success story, but neither can i call it a failure. Well he was livin poorly, but he had enough to him to scrape through, he could work and make some money. Well he stopped working he chosae to make himself miserable, we all choose to become miserable sometimes just to bring out a change iv seen it happen to myself. You are confortable with a position yet you want a change, actually the truth is u are uncomfortable but , you dont have the balls to make the change. So you buy time and become more miserable in your otherwise ok position by neglect,by choice. All this is done just to cause that change, you mentally prepare yourself for it, think bout it. Till Finally you do make that change, and if this fails too then you are a coward and you will remain miserable.
There are some people who are more hasty about their decisions and their choices , well im not such so i cant really say but i think they either lack foresight, or they lack the patience to see a thing through. Sometimes its the geniuouses who act like this , but the problem is you miss out the endless night that is spent burnin midnight oil just to think bout the situation, Well they have made their decision judging and weighing their pros and cons only it dosent show. Well tje other sorts are emotional decision makers and its their heart which makes the choice with no brain involved. Which one is a better way of thinking im not sure, but let us continue.

So this guy hes a serious thinker he lies awake many sleepless nights planning to become rich quick. He chooses his subject and action and even the weapon with complete plannin. He wants to kill this old woman for some cash. Shes a pawnbroker who is takin other peoples things and payimng them pittance for it. But the economy of the country helps her so she thrives.

He unconciously plans her murder and even commits it but as soon as the deed is done the plan goes down the drain ,. he didnt latch the door when he committed the murder, and this led to a second murder completely unplanned, of an innocent women , miserable like him. ... to be continued in next session gotta go now.