Well not directly atleast.
As usual i Havnt had a conversation the heart to hearts that keep u going for a long time , for a matter of fact not event the barely decent ones. But then does everything need to be said or spoken , or for that matter of fact conveyed.
I guess the best way to deal with it is in written , and even though we try to be discrete and well matterof fact, things just come out. How heavily the disillusionment has broken u, how quick its come to an end. What good has come out of it and whats left behind.
Its kind of sad to seem men and women break into these fragile beings , untrusting and unconcious , half dead at times , because of living with too much fear. Animals but not in herds alone oh so alone, waiting looking hoping and then realising that its not worth realising. Thats what its all about isnt it.
Oh what great spirits , well not quite broken not at the surface atleast , you think that they would survive and then you realise that you were wrong , the surface might have just gotten scratched but inside the pains intense. When will it be over this pain , this loneliness.
Iv already met too many people who are in this state specially in recent times. I have seen too many breakoffs . and all have surviveds with pain in the heart , and for some in the butt.
I am not to sure about myself anymore about my loyalties and my ability to love but then one thing im sure off i am not afraid of it , of the pain and whatever it causes .
I feel some are not ment to exist in harmony but then that one moment could be a life time couldnt it. But then there could be somany moment that we pass through .
I still feel though that love should be like a Rock , immovable , undestructable anwell unperishable.
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