There are times when I feel that I am going insane , or rather that I have reached there. I dont really know if you guys have ever felt it , but I have many a time . This feeling which kreeps up on you as the day passes and probably takes over you completely when its bout 2:00 in the afternoon. A feeling that you dot belong, not in the work that you are presently doing, not amongst the people that you are with , not even the city that you are in , I guess not even in the world at times. Its so intense that it completely blocks out all other things , be it work , love or anything , you become restless , you just cant stand the place youare in or rather the life you are living. Not that you are clear about what you Want or how u are going to acheive it ,but you just know that whatever is happening around you is not right. I guess for me its more of an indifference , theres nothing outside me which is upsetting me but rather something which is inside. I cant even say that its upsetting , more of a distracter , a distortion , a stuckness, a challenge a problem. Its enlightning at times , and I really feel at those moments to run way and to sit on a mountain looking at the world below.
I woneder , the feelings a bit alien now.
Ill try and write the next time i get it .
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