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This has been pending for quite some time now, but it just so happens that it wasn’t written till today. And now it’s being typed out at bloody1 in the morning. No I’m not drunk right now, and I don’t have a clue as to what I’m doing up so late. But this was supposed to be posted today and wasn’t.
I’ve just had a bit of a rollercoaster ride, and it’s now that I realize how much of the action I have missed for so bloody long. It was a trip from Pinkie which jogged me into existence again, and to tell you the truth there was not much of a change in the working me till we left for Blore and then things shifted into a different gear.
I guess people would call me temperamental, and I would completely agree with every word that they say. It’s a bit difficult to come out of your skin, as long as you are in the same city where you work. The work always seems to be overpowering and the body usually a little low on fuel. But a different city, a new flavor can add real life to you.
So that’s how it was till Pinks was here in Hyd, it was a decent slow existence, work, party / drink , movie and a trip. The trip uneventful except for the fact that I got my first taste of toddy , a bit too sweet for my taste and to tell you the truth it kind of looks a bit like rice water , not my idea of an afternoon drink. But anyways the trip till Nagarjuna Sagar was cool , the breakfast interesting and the Tire Puncture even more interesting. Pinkie I feel has changed In these strange ways , that are indescribable , probably more mature or maybe that’s what she tries to be , but it doesn’t matter dose it cos she’s Pinks by the end of it.
Well I was as irratic as ever and I think I must thank her for bearing with me and my mood swings. I guess that’s the price I have paid for staying alone for so long. It also makes me wonder whether I can survive with someone sharing my space, one two days is enough but then I think I start biting.
Blore was completely crazy , I mean that’s the only city where I usually end up drinking at 11 am , and end up stopping drinking at 5:00 am and all of this thanks to Anoop .I also realize how slow I have become for it , not because it saps me of energy but it’s not the complete idea of a holiday for me anymore, there needs to be sleep , beautiful sites and books in it. There was a time when if you told me we were to drink and smoke up for a week , vacationing id take you up on it , but to tell u the truth I think I don’t have that kind of energy or rather interest anymore. But it was strangely refreshing to know that I can still last on that and well more importantly that I did it. 13 th floor was amazing, Casa Del sol was very nice though I kind of freaked and rushed in the end, but I think Infinitea still is the best of them all . I think I could just go to blore for that and for some bookshops they have at MG Road.
I think there was some sort of closure there in Blore , it was good being there , Appu was great and I guess cos pinks was there she gave us more time , It is strange to see Pinks in Blore , her life there is completely different from the life she lives , ore has lived before in Tiss , As for me I think I’m just a bit like a small town boy in a big city at times there , I don’t know anymore.
Ok so what’s happened ever since?

Works become busy, launching the Evening clinics, World Osteoporosis Day and so on and so forth.
Iv Joined a gym and am trying hard to stick to it ( Please also note Iv failed quite miserably at it , 3 out of 7 days id say pathetic, all that body pain and it needs to be started all over again)
My homes not that comfortable at least not as comfortable as the previous house, I think I need some time to get used to it , though at present I’m trying to figure out whether the house not being perfect is in actuality beneficial for me.
The questions about my future plans is looming over my head and I’m still clueless m, though I think ill try and do something just because I need a change
Marriage and the need for getting married is something that I’m actually now considering
The questions about existence and the whole purpose behind it are now stemming up again and again , and they are kind of inflicting themselves on me , and I still haven’t got a clue
The whole concept of relationships / Friendships / Family all seem to be something completely alien for some strange reason. I vacillate between the complete desire and the complete abhorrence of all of these
I think I’m going through a midlife crisis or something.