conversations

Some  conversations are just had to connect they have no basic themes they sometimes  don't even have a  context like  random conversations in a  dream.   Conversations  like flying leaves in an autumn breeze.  Conversations the murmured nothings of lovers and politicians, white  lies and  black truths and honest confessions.

conversations the fabric of life  can one really exist in vacuum. 

I was thinking how important it is for us  to have  conversations,  be it with friends  , colleagues  , or mates conversations are truly so important. I had a  random conversation yesterday , it didnt have to be we  talked for a time with no direction  , it was just to say yes  im still here ,  you  can talk and i will reply you are not  alone in this vaccium , and  that you can take  warmth from my breath. 

And yet there are  days  and there are  people that  just  seemed so filled with words, to be avoided  like the  bubonic  plague. Have you had  those days  where  chatter  has been incessant and all you wanted to do was  to run away and sit in solitude in absolute vacuum shutting everything out, just for a  bit just for a minute , an hour, a day just for  a lifetime. 

Iv heard  silence too has its  own merits but honestly i haven't  practiced it much , Too much of silence   too for me  is dreaded. The silence at a  mourning , or the  silence of pure distraught, the  silence of  pure  inescapable thought. To flee from it one must talk  the silence  of fear or of discovery at times the  silence  of  shock. 

So the  question my friend here is whether to talk or not to talk. 

Of course  i do understand the importance of both and at times have hated both too ,  balance  is  important and its striking this thats  difficult. And what  do you do when conversations not really  flowing out of your mouth ,  words like spiders crawl back into your gullet being afraid of the  light outside or  at other times when you are afflicted by verbal diarrhoea  which is usually followed by a  bout of the  foot in the  mouth disease. 

Right enough of this  random conversation , lets take a  break and  think in silence about the  absolute  uselessness of this  post.