when i stop asking questions consider me dead

Life they say comes to those who live it , and now i wonder wat comes to those whov lost interest in life. WEll to them comes not really death but i guess this feeling of dissatisfaction or maybe apathy mixed with indifference.

Man learns to adapt. In fact im learning to live here without many people. I think im learning a bit slow, but the initial shock or rather horror slowed me down now that iv begun i think ill get better. There are new shocks on every corner and new horrors, that sometimes makes the insides of your stomach spin to be coughed out in vile vomit. There are nights slept restless or not slept at all, and then there are nights lost in comple tired slumber. To be awakened by nothing to be touched by all.Thats the peace of mind that can be attained or rather the degradation of it all.


This is a strange stage in my metamorphosis , to a butterfly i wonder, or is it going to be a moth, what happens if its a regeression in evolution and i turn into a caterpilar. Well whatever happens will happen and so i move on. Whatever is controlled by me i control, whatever is in their control including me they do. The rebell in me is rising , the fury increasing but will I finally have the guts. One of my friends or raher his professor talked about it that life was kinda all about guts thats the thing that seperates people doing things they wanna do and ppl doing things other ppl want them to do. Well i wonder what ill become , or rather what i am at present too.


Questions and more , but then thats wat life is all about aint it. I said this once well that ud be dead when u stop thinking, askin questions , and a learned or rather a friend whom i considered to be learned had said well u start living when ur mind goes blank. I dont really know which one is true but i think id die when i stop asking questions

Or rather to put it in another way when i stop asking questions consider me dead.